Last night, I watched the Ugly Truth with my parents. It’s a quite enjoyable, albeit all too predictable, movie. My only problem with it is that my mom and step dad keep telling me that I’m just like Katherine Heigl’s character, Abby. Though I thought Katherine Heigl did a great job, I felt that the way she played the role was over the top which I’m sure is what the director wanted. In my opinion, I feel like Abby and I share some similar qualities but I’m not as extreme as her character is. But we do both have a quirky little dance that we like to do when we get excited!
I like structure. I like being in control. I’m a health nut. I tend to go more for comfort when it comes to clothing. I have a list of certain traits an “ideal man” would have but I’m not expecting someone to fulfill all of them because if they do, chances are they are not being true to themselves (therefore not worth it in the long run). So yes, I’m a little like her. But to go as far as to say that Heigl’s character is me is a little daunting. I swear I’m not that crazy. And I hate cats so there’s a dividing factor right there. I hate being minimized into a stereotype and my own family is doing it. Even my brother’s girlfriend said I was just like her, and for the fifth time this week, I wanted to tear her head off.
There was something one of the writers of the movie said that struck home with me. “Find someone you can tolerate.” See? That’s something I can relate too! Seeing as I have PADHD, that’s a pretty damn good goal to achieve when it comes to finding love seeing as my tolerance threshold for most people is really low.
Funnily enough though, I’m trying to do what Abby does– step more out of my comfort zone.
Over the weekend, I met someone who said, “If this life is all we have, why not make the most of it?” I know this saying has been said one too many times (in some variation), but for some reason it hit home a little more this weekend. I’m fucking 21 years old! These should be the years of my life! I should be having fun! Granted, college isn’t that great but I can still try and make it a memorable experience. And that would involve me breaking out of my boring habitual patterns. A little scary, but I’m taking it one step at a time. Just like Abby! I’m still being myself though, just letting more of it show… like the stuff I’m afraid people will take the wrong way or frown on me (like wearing more revealing clothing which my family doesn’t exactly approve of).
Ugh, that’s a problem with being a girl. We try to please everyone but ourselves. I’m trying to make myself more of a priority and not caring about the shit everyone else thinks about my choices.
Here’s to pealing back the layers and exposing myself for what I am! Apparently, my family doesn’t even know me.
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Love this. It sounds like you need a big dose of “being selfish”. Have at it! ;-)
Comment by LiLu December 12, 2009 @ 6:42 AM